I truly had a lot of time to think while I drove on my journey to the gorgeous state of South Dakota. Well, lets be honest. It is super flat land for majority of it then you reach the open skyline and beautiful hills.
So I arrived at the farm I would be staying at for the next two weeks, at 6:30 a.m. after driving 24 hours straight from Atlanta. My first shift started at 9:30 that morning. I took a little catnap and decided I was done with my funk and that this was the first day to the rest of my life. I was so pumped and excited to get to work.
However, it took awhile for me to get to this mental state of acceptance. I had to accept that everything cannot always be perfect, that I cannot control every single aspect of each situation. This process took a lot of thinking and me time. I had to realize that mistakes and problems are meant to happen because if they do not, you cannot learn for yourself. You have to do wrong so you understand what is right. I repeated this to myself multiple times over months until I started to believe it myself, not just thought it, but now I truly believe in it. It was not always me messing up things, or “bad luck”, it was the universe teaching me right from wrong. Teaching me that things don’t have to be perfect all the time. I learned to let go on little things that I thought were huge problems, even things I couldn’t control. I started feeling less stressed and more understanding rather than frustrated with everything.
I was growing as a person, as an adult..I truly believe this was my first step to letting go and find what exactly makes me happy with life.